As I write this, the sun is shining brightly in the sky outside. I’m sitting beside a hospital bed, listening to the loud beeping of an alarm that should be telling a nurse somewhere to come change an IV medicine bag.
My friends are posting Christmas carols today. I did that earlier this week. Somehow, Christmas isn’t close to my thoughts today.
Even though a niece has started her road trip toward our house from northern latitudes this morning, and a sister-in-law will fly in from eastern longitudes later this week to be with us for Christmas, I find myself contemplating life and its uncertanties on this day.
Sitting in a waiting room of a hospital for nine hours a day ago will do that to a person. Visits with friends who pass by in the hallway—an activity one would expect to lift spirits—allows the shadows to creep into the mind.
A few days ago, I lifted my candle with a thousand other folks and said that the darkness could not overcome the light. I don’t repent of the declaration. It is still true.
Still, the lights of physical life can dim, while the light of Redeeming Grace shines the brighter.
As I waited for the result of a loved one’s surgery yesterday, I learned of a couple of families I know who are facing the loss of their loved ones this holiday season. Somehow, for them, the light won’t seem so bright in this season we call festive.
And, my heart weeps with them.
And, that’s as it should be.
But still, I watched the sunrise this morning before coming to sit beside the bed of my loved one who remains in pain, and I just couldn’t stop the words from welling up.
“When morning guilds the skies My heart awaking cries, ‘May Jesus Christ be praised.'”
As the day goes on, I don’t doubt that my spirit will flag. Sitting beside a bed is hard work. Elation is not the emotion one feels most in that locale.
But, it doesn’t change the fact that every morning we arise to meet the day is one in which we are blessed by our Creator.
“It is of the Lord’s mercies that we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not; they are new every morning. Great is Thy faithfulness.” (Lamentations 3: 22-24, KJV)
It was true when the words were written. It’s still true today.
Christmas will come. This Advent season builds the anticipation for the day when we’ll celebrate our Savior’s birth.
I’ll sing the carols. I will.
I hope your voice will blend with mine as we give thanks for His good and perfect gifts.
Even if our voices don’t blend all that well, it will be a joyful noise raised up to the God who bends low—the God who hears us, who understands our frailties, and still He came for us.
I’d still like to have the song in my mouth when the evening comes.
“Yea, Lord, we greet thee, born this happy morning. Jesus to thee be all glory given.” (from O Come All Ye Faithful, by John Francis Wade)
“The sun comes up; It’s a new day dawning. It’s time to sing Your song again. Whatever may pass And whatever lies before me, Let me be singing When the evening comes.”
It’s possible I may have forgotten a detail or two. It was, after all, forty years ago the young man told me the tale. You’ll forgive me if I embellish the spots that have grown fuzzy, won’t you? I know the young man will.
The two men, college boys—both of them, needed a change of pace. Classes had grown tedious, the assignments overwhelming, and they just weren’t feeling it. One of them—which, it doesn’t matter—suggested a hunting trip into the Ozark National Forest, just ten miles away.
Neither of the young men was an outdoorsman. The one who told me the story had shot a twenty-two caliber rifle at camp. I remember the time he shot the maintenance man at the local nursing home in the foot with a BB gun, but I think that was the extent of his hunting experience.
I never really knew the other fellow, beyond a nodding acquaintance, so let’s just assume his capabilities were about the same as the first one.
Having borrowed a couple of rifles, the two tenderfoots headed into the forest one early-winter afternoon with the intent of bringing home a big buck. The white-tail deer are plentiful around these parts, so it didn’t seem too far-fetched an idea. That was before.
Before they lost the trail. Before it got dark.
Before it got cold.
They wandered this way and that. Kicking through brambles, up and down the rock-littered hillside the fellows plodded. They backtracked and then circled around again. Finally, after yelling awhile, they gave up and decided that, rather than risk becoming even more lost, they would have to spend the night in the woods on the side of the hill. It was dark, you know.
But, it was cold, too. They sat shivering and then, a germ of an idea hit one of them. There were fallen leaves from the maples and oaks all around. Couldn’t they heap them up and crawl under them to keep warm?
I did say it was just a germ of an idea, didn’t I?
It didn’t help much, but at least the wind wasn’t as bitter under the leaves. They settled down to await daylight, ten hours away. Not half an hour passed and they heard a sound. Startling, it was, all the way out here along the trail.
A car horn! Right next to where they lay. Twenty feet—not much more.
They were only twenty feet from the road! Twenty feet!
Hopelessly lost. When they could almost have reached out and touched the gravel road.
They got in the warm car their concerned friend was driving and, relieved and not a little embarrassed, rode back to their college dorm. Can you imagine the feeling—the joy?
Found!
What a wonderful word. Found.
A lifetime of blessing, tied up in one word, one syllable.
I sat with my love one night recently and watched—again—a movie we had seen several years ago. August Rush. It’s a retelling of the old Dickens classic, Oliver Twist, but with music. Guitar music. Violin music. Ethereal music drifting in the ether.
Unrealistic and unbelievable. Tears flowed all the way through. I mean, they did from at least one set of eyes.
The movie’s villain, a character you almost want to love, takes kids off the streets of the big city and makes them work for him. In return, they receive protection, food, and a bed.
He asks the movie’s protagonist, a musical prodigy who doesn’t know who or where his parents are, the question that has stuck in my mind since I first viewed the movie.
“What do you want to be in the world? I mean the whole world. What do you want to be? Close your eyes and think about that.”
There is no hesitation, no fumbling for a description of fantastic scenarios, no mention of fame, or wealth. One word. One syllable.
“Found.”
Found.
How sweet the sound.
On a recent Sunday, I found myself sitting in the Emergency Room of a hospital in a nearby town with a friend. The call had come just as I arrived at the church and it was only natural that I would give our dear friend a ride for the treatment she needed. It’s what we do for our friends. All she had to do was ask.
She apologized for putting me out. She wasn’t. Putting me out at all, I mean. It was my pleasure to help.
You have friends like that, don’t you? A phone call—a message—the beckoning of a single finger, and they are moving mountains to help. I know several, and love them all. With them, I always belong. Always.
But, what if? What if you knew no one who would help? What if choices you had made, paths you had taken, had left you alone?
Lost.
I left the hospital a few hours later after my friend had been admitted. Someone else had come to sit with her for a while, so I was headed home for Sunday dinner with my family.
Meatloaf. Butternut squash. Apple crisp.
The small lady carrying a big bag caught me in the parking lot, just as I stepped up onto the running board of my pickup truck.
“Please, sir. Can you help me? The people who were supposed to pick me up from the Emergency Room left me here, stranded. Can you give me a ride home?”
It was several miles away. Through traffic. The opposite direction from where I needed to go. My family was waiting. My dinner was getting cold.
I gave her a ride. Climbing in, she thanked me and gave her pronouncement on the human race, based on her missing ride.
“People are always unreliable.”
She fell asleep before she could tell me where she was going. I woke her up and got a general direction before she nodded off again. At first, I was afraid she was fainting and suggested taking her back to the hospital, which she vociferously rejected. As I drove on, it became apparent the problem was drugs. Whether they came from the Doctor at the emergency room (as she claimed) or not, I don’t know.
Annie Mae got home on Sunday. After a few tries, we found the destination. It was actually a convenience store in her neighborhood, but it was where she wanted out. She had a few dollars in her hand to buy a sandwich or, more likely, beef jerky—since that was what she said she wanted.
She had a couple of other things, too.
She had the name of Jesus in her ears. I’m not an evangelist. I didn’t explain the Four Spiritual Laws to her. I’ve tried that with folks who were impaired before. It’s not appropriate in those moments. But, she’ll remember that Jesus loves her.
And somehow, I think she knows that, for just a few moments on Sunday afternoon, she was found.
Understand. This isn’t about me. Not at all about me. I fit right in with Annie Mae’s description of humanity in general.
I am unreliable. I am.
But if we, who have been shown immeasurable kindness, will not show small kindnesses to our neighbors, be they close friends or be they street people, can we truly claim to be followers of Christ?
We, once hopelessly lost, but now found—is it not an obligation that we help those who have strayed from the way (or perhaps never been on it) to realize that being found is as simple as asking?
I wonder. Are we the unreliable ones?
Is it time for us to ride down a country road or two and honk the horn to let people know just how close they are to being found?
The Teacher, in one of His parables, reminded His followers that they should search the main roads and the alleys, too, giving them every reason to come and sit at the table. (Luke 14:23)
I’m ready to drive around for a while. But, do you suppose I could finish my meatloaf first?
After that, who wants shotgun?
Amazing Grace, How sweet the sound That saved a wretch like me. I once was lost, but now am found; Twas blind, but now I see. (from Amazing Grace ~ John Newton ~ 1725-1807)
