I Did That

I’m rethinking the events of my day.

No. Really, I’m wondering about the events of my life.  They’re all related, you know. 

It was a good day.  Well, I mean it was a good day until I spent an hour or so in the dentist’s chair, panicking like a waterboarding victim at Gitmo.  Before that, though…

Before that, though, I got to do what I’ve done most work days for the last thirty-plus years.

I got to assist folks in making purchases which will help them make music.  I helped some teachers make purchases which will aid them in helping people learn how to make music.

I even worked on several instruments to improve their ability to be used in making music.

It doesn’t sound like much, does it?  I simply help people make music.

A couple of different people today referred to me as the music man.  But, except for sporadically, I don’t actually make music myself.

Still, the enjoyment I receive from sitting in a concert, listening to students play instruments I either procured for them, or repaired for them, cannot be overstated.

Watching a guitarist in the park play a gig on an instrument which was lying on my work bench that morning brings a thrill I’m not sure I can describe.

At times like that, it’s hard to keep from looking at the person sitting beside me and nudging them before whispering in their ear:

I did that!

Funny thing, every time I start to think like that—every time—I get a nudge from the Spirit that lives inside of me.  And I hear a voice, a voice audible only to me, saying;  

No.  I did that.  (1 Corinthians 4:7) 

Can I tell you a secret?  

There is no less joy—no smaller personal reward—in acknowledging God’s hand in my life, than in pridefully claiming the credit myself.  There is even more than a little relief in making the admission.

If I am responsible for yesterday’s conquests, the pressure to perform the same feats tomorrow is squarely on my shoulders.

They’re not strong shoulders.

His are.

The longer I live, the more clear it becomes that any legacy I hope to leave behind will not last more than a few days past my departure from this life.

Unless—unless the legacy is not dependent on my activities, not attributed to me alone.  The things I do that shine a spotlight on myself are nothing, simply the emperor’s clothes.  I might as well stand in plain sight without a stitch of clothing on. 

A legacy comes from living a life with purpose.  It comes from giving everything you’ve got for something bigger than fame, or reputation, or wealth.
                              

One of the instruments I laid on my work bench today was a fine electric guitar, if not an expensive one.  The owner wanted me to put new pickups in it, so he could achieve a different sound than the originals were capable of.  

He has been working on the appearance of the guitar.  By that I don’t mean he has been polishing it up, or touching up the finish.  

What I mean is that the owner has been abusing the finish on the body of the instrument.  He wants people to think he’s playing an old, vintage guitar.  Sandpaper and a screwdriver are among the tools he has used to lovingly deface the glossy paint and to scar the wood.

2016-06-17 00.39.57-2More than one person stopped by my work bench today and saw the poor guitar lying there.  The work the owner has done paid off.  

Guitarists have a soft spot in their hearts for an instrument that has paid its dues.  A vintage instrument, worn and beaten, but still in service, has (and rightfully so) earned their respect.

I saw the respect and reverence in the eyes of the onlookers today.  Immediately, I invited them to touch the instrument.  

Within a second of touching the so-called wear on the guitar, the respect and reverence was gone from the faces of every single one who tried it.  In the same faces, I saw chagrin and derision.  Chagrin at being fooled.  Derision at the idea that such an instrument was worthy of respect.

The guitar, although very much a real and worthwhile instrument, is a fake.

A fake.  However useful, it is trying to gain respect not due it.  Honor comes with service.  And perseverance.  

Good honest wear comes from years of being held in the hands of the music man.  The hands of the person who knows how to squeeze the tonality and volume from the depths of the instrument.  

The wear that comes from a lifetime of service will leave scars.  It will leave bare spots and faded places.

All smooth as silk.  The rough edges are rubbed away, the raw crevices of accidental gouges worn down to a gentle slope.

Touchable.  Comfortable.  

Beautiful.

And somehow, we’re not talking about guitars anymore, are we?

In the hands of the Music Maker, service becomes legacy.  (James 1:12

Hardship becomes blessing.

Disaster becomes opportunity.

Good.  Honest.  Wear.

The day is coming when I will stand before the real Music Man.  I think I’d like to hear His voice say—just His, and no one else’s:

I did that.

Scars, gouges, and thin spots.  

His legacy.  

Not mine.

His.

 

 

 

Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don’t matter at all, because once you are Real you can’t be ugly, except to people who don’t understand.
(The Velveteen Rabbit ~ Margery Williams ~ English/American author ~ 1881-1944)

 

 For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
(Romans 8:38-39 ~ NASB)

 

 

 

© Paul Phillips. He’s Taken Leave. 2016. All Rights Reserved.

Tell Your Story

I was fascinated.

Fascinated.  Well, of course I was.  I’m a music nerd.  I love music—making it, practicing it, learning new techniques, even (and perhaps, especially) listening to others make it. 

I know it’s odd, but I even enjoy watching the coalescence of musical styles which occurs when great minds come together to learn from each other. 

The video program I watched one night recently gave stellar evidence of that process. 

I hope those of my readers who don’t love music all that much will stick with me.  I’ll try not to be too detailed in my description.  I hope the conclusion will be worth the journey.

They called them master classes.  Professional musicians sat onstage with up-and-coming stars and listened to them perform.  Then the professionals made suggestions.  Not correctionssuggestions.

Their goal was a path to improvement, suggested in a non-judgmental manner.

I listened to the talented young man play that beautiful Steinway grand piano masterfully.  An old Billy Joel song.  I could just hear Billy singing and playing as the young artist performed.  It was obvious the young man had studied the original recording.  He wanted to get it just right.  And, he nailed it.

It was perfect.  If you were Billy Joel.

The professionals, sitting at a little table off to the side, clapped and cheered along with the crowd.  Then one of them said the last words the young musician expected to hear.  Perhaps they were the last words he wanted to hear.

“I think it’s good sometimes to do a song without the piano.  Try it again and leave your hands down.”

The young man’s face fell, but he nodded.  He positioned his mouth against the microphone before him.  Nervously, his hands reached for the piano keys, almost of their own volition.  Embarrassed, he let out a little almost-laugh and looked pleadingly at the pro.

“You want me to not play the piano?”

When the teacher responded in the affirmative, the young man breathed a sigh of disappointment, perhaps even of frustration.  Laying his hands in his lap, he began to sing.

He began to sing.  Billy Joel wasn’t there.  At all.

It was an amazing transition.  The melody was still the same.  The words were still the same raunchy words that Billy sang.

But, it was all him.  His voice.  His tonality.  His inflection.

All him? Just because he stopped playing the piano?  No, not really.

It was because he stopped hearing the music the way someone else had performed it.  This was just him and a song. 

His song.

I almost cried.  The message was so powerful.

I wrote down these words in a note to myself, so I wouldn’t forget.

Tell your story.  YOUR.  STORY.
Unaccompanied.  Pure. Fresh.
                   

It has always bothered me.  On television, I see all the Elvis impersonators.  They all dress alike.  Comb their hair alike.  They even talk alike.

“Thank you very much.”

Admit it.  You said it like they would.  Like he did when he was alive.

Marco_la_voz_del_rock_and_rollThe impersonators whirl and grind and kick like they have seen him do, either in person or on a video.  Their study of the real Elvis has helped in perfecting their mimicry. 

Their sideburns are trimmed like Elvis’s. The cape hangs over their shoulders with the stiff, high collar sticking up against the fringe of the greasy pompadour they have slicked back to mimic the so-called King.

Have you ever thought one of those impersonators was actually Elvis?

Of course not!  They may remind you of the man, but they could never be the man.  He is dead. 

The king is dead.
                   

We spend our lives imitating others.  Parents, teachers, sports idols, Hollywood stars—the list is endless.  We imitate them.

We imitate.

It’s not all that bad a system.  We say imitation is the sincerest form of flattery.  We even understand that we learn more quickly when we have an example to follow.  Imitation to learn isn’t the problem.

The problem is we imitate to live

We pick another human being and model our life on them.  Another flawed, fallen human being.  Disappointment is not just a possibility.  It is inevitable.

Tell your story.  Your.  Story.

It is true if you write, if you paint, if you teach, or even if you perform on a world-wide stage.  When you live your life, simple or elaborate though it may be, make sure it’s your own story being told.

God made only one of me—only one of you.  You are already the best you there is, simply because there isn’t another one in existence.

Be you.  The way He made you.

We don’t need any more Billy Joels.  We don’t need any more Elvis Presleys. 

There is One we are called to follow, though.  It’s interesting that we don’t know more about the physical methods He used in His activities on this earth.  There are no photographs, no videos to imitate.  No expose’ of His taste in homes and shoe fashion will ever be leaked to the Internet. We can’t mimic His hairstyle or vocal idiosyncrasies.

He doesn’t want or need a bunch of impersonators running around, sighing piously and pretending to do the things He did. 

No one buys that act anyway—no more than they buy the Elvis impersonator’s schtick. 

We don’t know all that much about what He did.  I think that is purposeful.  What we do know is who He wasAnd is.

We get to love as He did.  We get to have the same mind that He had.

You still get to be you.  The best you there is. 

Only better.

 

 

 

You are you.  Now, isn’t that pleasant?
(Dr. Seuss ~ American author ~ 1904-1991)

 

Have this mind in you, which was also in Christ Jesus…
(Philippians 3:5 ~ ASV)

 

A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.
(John 13:34 ~ NIV)

 

 

 

 

© Paul Phillips. He’s Taken Leave. 2015. All Rights Reserved.