Blanketed in Love

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I was ten years old.  As my family, seven strong, sat around the dinner table that fall night, we were surprised at Dad’s words.  Well, the five kids were, anyway.

“I’ve got five dollars to give to each one of you.  There’s just one catch.  You have to write me a note and tell me what you want to buy with it.  If you don’t write me a note, I won’t give you the money.”

Five dollars!  In 1967 money, that’s almost fifty dollars today.

Five dollars for each of us!  We left the table, little minds spinning with the possibilities.  Even as we headed for bed that night, the ideas were all jumbled in our heads.  My brother and I talked excitedly as we got into our little twin-size erstwhile bunkbeds, across the room from each other.

Wait.  There’s got to be a catch.  He’ll want it to be something worthwhile, won’t he?  I bet I can’t get all the candy and coke I want.  (I did grow up in Texas, so you understand “coke” is any fizzy drink, right?)  I bet it needs to be something like a book.  Or, school supplies.

I didn’t write anything that night, but I didn’t get much sleep either.  My brain kept leaping to new ideas and, just as quickly, rejecting them, believing that the offer might be rescinded for such a flaky or irresponsible idea.  My benefactor was not keen on flaky or irresponsible.

At some time during the night, the temperature outside my South Texas home having dropped below 60 degrees, I felt the chill, and I reached for the scratchy wool military surplus blanket at the foot of the bed.

It was warm, but it wasn’t comfy.  Not snuggly.  You’d be much more likely to describe it as itchy than comfy.  I never liked that blanket.

Blanket!

That was it!  I knew what I would spend my money on!

Sleep finally took me, but when the sun rose and Mom called up the stairs for all the drowsy-eyed boys to get out of bed, I needed no second call.  I dressed and tromped down the steep treads as fast as I could, sitting at the dining table to check the Sears and Roebuck catalog, before hurriedly scribbling a note for my dad.

“I’ll spend my $5 on a soft, thermal blanket with satin edging.  Baby blue or something close.”

Approved!  I got my blanket!

I don’t remember how long I used that blanket, but I loved it.  It was soft and comforting, warm in the winter and cool enough in the summer to leave rolled up beside my body while I slept.

As I think of it now, it was kind of like a hug from my Dad anytime I wanted one.  I may or may not have thought that way about it then.

Nearly fifty years later, I got a check in the mail one fall day.  It was from the same man who gave me those five dollars all those years before.  This check was for five hundred dollars.

He didn’t ask what I would spend the money on before sending it.

No reason; just because.

I bought a new recliner.  My Dad loved a recliner.  I do, too.  I was sure he would approve of my use for his gift.

Somehow, when I sit in that recliner, now with a slipcover over the damaged and cracking leather, it still feels a little like getting a hug from the man, now absent.

I don’t want to preach.

No, really.  I don’t.

So, I won’t.

And the Teacher said to them:

“So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask Him?”
(Matthew 7:11, NLT)

I know.

It kind of feels like a hug, doesn’t it?

And, I’m guessing you could use one of those right about now.

 

“‘For I know what I have planned for you,’ says the Lord. ‘I have plans to prosper you, not to harm you. I have plans to give you a future filled with hope.'” 
(Jeremiah 29:11, NET)

© Paul Phillips. He’s Taken Leave. 2024. All Rights Reserved.

A Loaf of Bread

 

 

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It hasn’t been a relaxing day.  It never is when I get up before seven in the morning.  Even less, when I don’t sleep well through the night.

A couple of days ago, the nice lady on the phone told me when I needed to arrive at the medical facility today.  The scheduled procedure will hopefully help relieve my confusion about what to do next so I won’t have so much pain when I walk.  And, tie my shoes.  Or, pick up that piece of ice I dropped in the kitchen.

So, I got up early.  It’s not that I wanted to get up early.  I just want to get rid of the pain more than I wanted to sleep later today.

I had been warned that it would be noisy inside the MRI machine.  They say the sounds are often close to 120 decibels. That’s about as loud as a jet taking off.

Even with the earplugs, it was loud.  In the weirdest way.  Hums and buzzes and beeps—clanging and whirring and banging.  But, it’s not random.

The processes required to produce the images also make the noises.  High and low, long and short, they go on for the entire time one is in the tube (or tunnel, however you want to describe it).  And, there is rhythm.

I suspect a percussionist might find interest in the sounds.  But, I agree with my old friend,  who, being told he had an “essential” tremor, uttered the words, “I think I could do without it.”

I could have done without them.  The sounds, I mean.  And, being in the tiny tunnel.

Still, I survived mostly unscathed.  But, feeling overwhelmed, I drove home, opting to forego my stop at the coffee shop.

I eased down into my recliner. And, I just sat.  For over an hour.  I didn’t sleep.  I didn’t watch television.  I just sat staring at nothing.

I might still be sitting there if an angel hadn’t offered me some food.

No.  Wait.  I’m getting ahead of myself.  That wasn’t exactly what happened.

What happened was, I got a phone call.  From an old friend in my hometown.  He had no agenda but just called to talk for a while.

We talked.  About people.  About tasks still to be finished.  About the past (we go back nearly 60 years).  Tears.  Laughter.  Hardships.

Blessings, all.

When our call ended, many long minutes later, the funk in which I had found myself was gone.  All because a friend offered me bread to eat.

No.  Wait.  Where does that bread keep coming from?

Oh.  I know.

Elijah.  Elijah had a task he needed to accomplish.  When it was done, and he was successful, he ran for his life.  An angel made him some pita (or something like it) and sent him on to God.

It’s an oversimplification, I know.  Still.  The man of God defeated all the false prophets of Baal and brought an end to a long drought in the land.  Then, he ran for his life and hid.

The angel didn’t come with any intent to fix Elijah.  He simply ministered to him where he was.  Food and rest.

God would take care of everything else.  In a “narrow silence”, a quiet and small voice, He would speak.

But first, the man needed bread.

Isn’t that what we do for each other here?

In times of distress, we feed each other.  After sleepless nights, we offer places of rest.

I’m still waiting for the answer to my medical questions.

But, the road I’m following is lined with people—other humans—who care for me, and then send me on, strengthened and rested, to God.

As several of my friends keep reminding me, we’re just walking each other home.

And sometimes, the daily bread He gives us comes straight from the hands (and hearts) of our fellow travelers.

I’ll do my best to share some naan when my turn comes.

 

“Bread.  That this house may never know hunger.”
(from It’s a Wonderful Life)

“But he insisted so strongly that they did go with him and entered his house. He prepared a meal for them, baking bread without yeast, and they ate.”  (Genesis 19:3, NIV)

 

© Paul Phillips. He’s Taken Leave. 2024. All Rights Reserved.

 

Big, Strong Hands

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“My PT said I could ride my bike again if I want.”

My old friend sat near me in the coffee shop as our conversation wandered far afield last week.  There was purpose in our visit, but it has been a while since we sat and spoke.

We used to sit for hours on our bicycle seats (what little there is of them) and talk as our magic machines ate up the miles, the twenty-nine-inch wheels spinning at approximately 185.6 RPM.  Perhaps fewer, sometimes.  And more, less often.  I hope that’s not too confusing.

What I’m saying is that we rode long distances—usually slowly. And sometimes fast, but only for shorter distances.

Just over three months ago my friend had an accident and hasn’t been able to ride at all since then.  Until this week.  It’s been hard for him.  The pain was constant and, at times, unbearable.  And, when you can’t do what you love, it’s not only the pain that wreaks havoc on your mind and emotions.

Then, on that day last week, his physical therapist had given him a glimmer of promise, of expectation.

I rejoiced with him in his hope.

We stayed.  Much longer than we had planned, sitting in that one spot, offering (and perceiving) insights into our faith—our intellect—even our hearts.  Three hours after we dropped into the comfortable chairs, we finally stood again.

As I stood, I felt a twinge in my lower back.  It’s not unusual.  I am aging.  I’ve not been kind to my body over the years and, if a twinge is the price for a few hours of communion with an old friend, I’ll pay the price.

I didn’t realize it was the last time I’d stand easily for at least a week, perhaps longer.  The doctor I visited with this afternoon didn’t seem all that optimistic for a quick and easy solution to the crippling pain I’ve lived with since that day.  Perhaps, I’m reading more into his words than he intended. Still, I’m not wearing any rose-colored glasses.

A phrase from a children’s movie in the 1980s comes to my mind as I write tonight.  I see the Rockbiter character from The Neverending Story as he sits gazing at his hands which have failed him miserably.  His somber, almost despairing voice repeats the words;

“They look like good, strong hands, don’t they?”

It’s not the first time I’ve faced this truth.  And, I’m not sure it ever gets easier.  It should, but I’m not sure it does.

I’m not invincible.  I have no guarantee that I’ll be able to continue as I’ve begun.  No one does.

The treasure (Grace and Light, given as a gift) followers of Jesus hold is held in hands and bodies of clay.  They may appear strong.  They could even stay intact for most of a lifetime, seeming to prove the strength of the holders, the pilgrims themselves.

They’re not. Strong, that is.

Strength is loaned—a stewardship to be used as long as we can wield it.  But, it was never ours.

Never.

“We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves.”
(2 Corinthians 4: 7, NLT)

Vessels of clay.  It doesn’t seem all that hopeful, does it?

Still, there is a glimmer—promises made to us many years ago.

We may be pressed, but we are not crushed.
We are sometimes perplexed, but we are not in despair.
We might seem to be prey for the hunter, but we haven’t been left defenseless;
Ah!  And when we are knocked down, it is never a permanent condition.
(My paraphrase of the verses that follow the verse just above)

I stood yesterday and held back the tears as my neighbor consoled me, averring it was okay that I couldn’t help her with a task I’d done for several years.  I don’t know how long it will be before I can help her with it again.

For some reason, last night, I watched a video clip of that scene from the movie mentioned above and almost felt the creature’s despair.  Almost.

But, moments later, I went to sleep with words from the Psalm writer, the warrior musician, in my head.  They are well-known words that he wrote to remind his victorious army that the strength they had been loaned was different from that of the world around them.

“Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
    but we trust in the name of the Lord our God.”
(Psalm 20:7, NIV)

God’s hands are big, strong hands!

Today, some folks I love pulled into my driveway and asked if I would unlock my storage barn so they could get to my lawnmowers and other lawn tools.  One asked for a short tutorial on using my riding mower.  The others filled tanks with gasoline and checked the oil.

My lawn was going to be mowed.  I couldn’t do it for myself, so they did.

But, before they started, they asked about my neighbor.  Splitting up, they mowed mine and hers.  In the hot sun, the strong young folks labored in the strength they’ve been loaned.  Then they asked if they could take care of the neighbor on the other side of me, who usually can count on me to work in her yard, too.

I’m not crying.  You are.

Okay.  I am. A little.

Every good gift—every perfect gift—comes from Above.

I’m not invincible.  I know that.  I won’t ever be.

I may be capable again.  Time will tell.  Still, I’ll never be invincible.

But, I am indomitable.  At least, I’m working at it.

Steadfast.  Unyielding.

They are Good, Strong Hands.

And, they’re holding us.

 

My heart is steadfast, O God,
my heart is steadfast!
I will sing and make melody!
Awake, my whole being!
Awake, O harp and lyre!
I will awake the dawn!
I will give thanks to you, O Lord, among the peoples;
I will sing praises to you among the nations.
For your steadfast love is great to the heavens,
your faithfulness to the clouds.
Be exalted, O God, above the heavens!

Let your glory be over all the earth!
(Psalm 57:7-11, ESV)

 

© Paul Phillips. He’s Taken Leave. 2024. All Rights Reserved.

A Wee Little Man Standing Tall

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A young friend posted a photo of one of her favorite trees a few weeks ago.   It was a lovely sycamore tree near her house.  I couldn’t help but respond when I saw it. 

Since I moved with the Lovely Lady into her childhood home several years back, we’ve planted more than half a dozen trees on the property.  Her dad loved the trees here, having planted many of them himself well more than half a century ago.  The only problem is, most of those he planted are no longer living and we felt the need to repopulate the area a bit.

My favorite, by far (well, for right now, anyway), is the sycamore tree we planted 4 years ago in the backyard.  The pretty sapling was just over seven feet tall when we dug the hole to set the root ball into on that early fall day.  The gorgeous tree now measures about twenty-five feet to the tip of its crown.

I mentioned the tree to my young friend and told her sycamores were also my favorite.  Now, she wants me to tell her what my top five favorite trees are.  I’m cogitating on that question.  Answering will take time.

But, the sycamore…

Do you know the sycamore tree grows to over one hundred feet tall?  And, it can live to several hundred years old.  Three to four hundred, I’m told.

Four hundred years!  The mind boggles.  I’m pretty sure this old house will be long gone by then.  No.  I’ve worked on the house for a few years now.  It’ll be gone.  I’m sure of it.

But, the tree we planted will still be living.  I wish I could say the same about other parts of my legacy.  Of course, some things I want you to forget even before I’m gone.  But, not all of it.

We all want to be remembered.  For the good things.

I’m sorry.  This brain of mine—the part of me that is always wandering—seems to be headed to a conversation about a little man.  A short man who, dead most of two thousand years, lives on in our stories and songs.

It must be the subject of the sycamore that has done it—made my mind wander here.  Of course, the sycamore in this story is a sycamore fig, which is indigenous to the Holy Land.  Unrelated to the sycamore (or London Plane) trees we know in the United States, they are more closely related to a mulberry tree.

I don’t know how short Zacchaeus was, just that he wasn’t tall enough to see over the crowd that followed the Teacher.  And it was essential to him!  He needed to see this Man.  So, he climbed into the lower limbs of the sycamore tree, not a great feat even for a short man.  The limbs of the sycamore fig tree are close to the ground.

He didn’t need to climb high, just higher than the heads of the crowd.  It was enough.  Not only could he see the Teacher—the Teacher saw him and invited himself to the little tax collector’s house.

Beyond the words that compelled him to climb back down from the tree and the insistence that Jesus would go to his house, we don’t know if Jesus directed any other words to Zacchaeus at all.  None are reported.

That didn’t stop Zacchaeus from repenting of his sins and promising to make restitution—as much as four-fold what he had cheated people out of.

Think of it!  There were no words of reproach; no bargaining for his confession.  In the presence of the Son of God, Zacchaeus recognized who he had become and turned from his sin and greed.

And, over two thousand years later, we still remember that sycamore tree and the man who saw Jesus and was changed forever.  Our kids still sing the song about the wee little man.  But, he almost looms tall in our telling of the story.

Salvation comes when we recognize who we are, but more importantly, who He is.  In His presence, we cannot remain unchanged.

Somehow, like the little man, I often can’t see the One I claim to follow over the heads of the people who clamor along the way.

It’s time for another long look, isn’t it?  And maybe longer than just a look. 

The prophet Jeremiah knew that we need to dwell—to settle in—in His presence.  He described the people who trust in Him and have made Him their hope.  And, he says such people will be like trees planted along the riverbanks, trees that have a ready source of water, enough to stem any extended drought or trial.

I read that passage again as I wrote today, and I laughed as I remembered the trees that grow down by the rivers and creeks near us.  Everywhere, along the banks where the Lovely Lady and I wander, we see them—sycamores—growing beside the source of their sustenance, roots going deep.

I almost want to ask the question; Shall We Gather at The River?  Maybe, we could stay there awhile with our Teacher.

I’m sure He’ll see us there.

I wonder if He’ll be coming to my house for tea.  Maybe, we can sit in the shade of my sycamore tree and talk about that other one and the man who climbed into its branches all those years ago.

What a long shadow he’s cast—the little man and his tree.

Planted by the rivers of water, we’ll leave a legacy.

A long one, I hope.  Maybe three or four hundred years. 

Or longer.

 

“But blessed are those who trust in the Lord
    and have made the Lord their hope and confidence.
They are like trees planted along a riverbank,
    with roots that reach deep into the water.
Such trees are not bothered by the heat
    or worried by long months of drought.
Their leaves stay green,
    and they never stop producing fruit.”
(Jeremiah 17: 7-8, NLT)

“A society grows great when old men plant trees in whose shade they know they shall never sit.” (Old Greek Proverb)

 

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